The Crash

It has been about a month since it happen, but I was in a car accident. It is going to sound like a cliché, but I think that it has changed me.

Somewhere in my mind I have always thought that I was destined for something great. I never really thought that I would ever get anything less than that.

When the crash happened it was unexpected. Even as I was sliding into the car in front of me I was sure that I was not going to make contact, but I did. I hit the man in front of me with enough force to push my whole front end into the engine.

When the man got out of his truck he was calm, he took my information down, looked at the lack of damage to his truck, and left. Me, I was shaking. I was shaking badly. I could not hold my license steady, nor could I gather myself enough to speak clearly to the Highway Patrol Officer.

My thoughts were of death. At that moment it occurred to me that this is how people die. There is no warning, there is no chance to achieve whatever greatness that you might be destined for, there is just a crash and then nothing.

It made me think about what I am doing. I think about it all the time now. At the time of the accident I was out of control in several areas of my life. In a way I needed the crash to give me focus.